Tales of A Lost Soul

~Yumei...Verse Jyuusan~

Heh...
Let this small carving...
Remind me of this small event
A carving only I could unlock
Only I could disenchant.

Yes...twas bizarre
Obviously for because of the time and deed.
Well, whatever the reason
This could well enough...
More than enough actually.

If a man wanted to kill himself
But he wanted to have his last nap first
This ray of light would change his mind
He would not end his life
It would be enough to make him smile,
A warmth enough to last a few years
At least thats what I think.

A gentleness that transcends time and space.
I can still feel it.
I can still remember it.

Whether this is a mere game or not
Its not for me to decide is it?
I'll just accept it as it is.
For this has returned a few years of my life that I had thrown.
Nanka...ureshii.

~Yumei...Verse Jyuuni~

Heh, is this a good or bad omen?
Maybe both, maybe none.
Grey...ka...
Its been awhile...or is it?
Looks fun.

~Yumei...Verse Jyuuichi...~

Ah sou...
How long has it been?
I'll check it later
Its been a while...
Grey huh...

Lately my acids tend to be more ferocious then before
He said its because...
Maybe it wasn't something serious
Maybe he didn't say it with a serious thought...
But, then again...he is an experienced one compared to me

So...do I?
Well perhaps...
Think I'll check now...how long has it been?
Heh...Its the 72nd day...Its been 17 days...
Yeah, nothing much, perhaps it is.

Heh now is a good time for the shadows to come out and play
Wonder If I'll live?
Yeah, guess I do...
But the me now is not yet qualified...
I must be stronger...

~Yumei...Verse Jyuu~

Yare yare
This happened way back when
Not too long though.
Ano bara...ka...
Heh, omoshirei...
Nankai...
Sankai...futsuu...Once...pure.

~Yumei...Verse Kyuu...~

Heh...now what was that?
That short instant?
If its true...then...nanakai...ka....
Heh, what else shall come in the future?
Saa ne...what do I know?

It was the vaguest...might even be the fabrication of my...
My wildness? Or is it pure?
Haha...maa...wakannai...
Perhaps I just long too much
Heh, gotta stay strong...

~Yumei...Verse Hachi...~

Nanda...arewa...
Kenkai...ka...
Iya...more like...
Uber blizzard huh...
Its funny...those squiggles for warning...
A premonition for tomorrow?
Heh, maybe...

Guess I need to be cautious...

So...rokukai...ka...

Heh...omoshirei...

~Yumei...Verse Nana~

Nanda...arewa?
Mata...ka...
Akai...
Ima...kimi...
Gokaida...

In that tainted state
I can't remember
Crimson...
Thats it...scarlet...
Soredakeda...

Demo...gokai...fufufu...omoshiroijyanai?

~Yumei...Verse Roku~

Its strange...fushigidana
I dont usually dream a lot while I slumber
But these dreams lately...
They seemed so real...
Like very real

Just now...
Another one...ka
Its all about my Bell
At first...black, then white, then happiness
The happiness of that slight touch
Just a bit by accident on my shoulder...is it?
From that gentle crown...

It was mixed...no? WIth my past life n friends.
Guess I missed them all the same
It is said those who sleep after the third period...
Goes insane...
Maybe I am

Looking back...how many?
1...2...3...4...4 now...
1...happy
2...white...pink...cold
3...full white...
4...black...white...happy....
I wonder...are these mere toys of my sleep...

Or something else?
Heck I even visioned writing this entry in that 4th dream
Though the contents vary a bit...
Different scenes and worlds in one dream...
Heh...this is insane indeed...

Heh...now what?
1 full white, 2 whites...
Thats 3.
Or should I wait for 3 full whites?
Or wait for the 5th dream?
As they say...
The secret lies in five...

Heh...well for now...its on to the ordeal
Untill the tobira opens
Shiawase no hikari no tobira...

~Yumei...Verse Go~

Amik ko full white terus
Dah tak yah doubt dah
That is the answer for sure
Sore wa ore no unmei
I will accept this answer

The other one?
Fufufu...two? Perhaps?
Nevertheless...
Kotae wa te ni ireta
Dakara...ore wa...mae ni susume!
Saa...ikouze!
This time I really am sure of my destiny!

~Yumei...Verse Yon...~

Omoidashita...
Iroirona koto...
My past...those good old times...
Did i missed those times?
Do I wish to see them all again?

An then...Cherry...
Clearly...Twice?
Or was it trice?
I could remember 1 and 2 quite well...
1 went my way...I guess...
2 was a blizzard of Siberia
3? Does it even exists?

Well the dreams that appears when I'm awake sure are countless
What is this craziness?
What is this drunkenness?
What is this mad hunger?
Surely this is not the holy pure emotions of love...
Or is it?
I know not...For I am lost...

~Yumei...Verse San~

Is that...my end?
I wonder...
No wonder i felt no pain
It wa all a dream
Still...I'm curious

Why did I went in?
Eventhough I knew
That it would be my last?

Heh...even in all that rushing down
And explosion
I was still able to mutter
Some of my last prayers..
How Ironic...

And to think...
To be able to see my own dead body...
What does this mean?

~Yumei...Verse San~

Nanda...ano yumei?
Mezurashiina ore...
Forest...
Duty called...
The direct descendant...there?
I was beside him...
The bridge rocked...

Sleepy I was...
The we were at his residence...a tad bit different than usual
I was frustrated for my sleepyness...
There was a feast...a normal feast
Then we went back...
A bit sad...
Not to be abe to meet him

~Yumei...Verse Ni~

Ah...how vague...
The dream has dwindeled even though it has only been a few days old
Yes, bits still remain...kakera

It was a good dream...yes...
The joy we had...
The experiences we shared...

How we were thrashed around
Then how we thrashed others around
Isshouni tabeta...mainichi

Aaa...I seem to want to see them again...
Aitai...
Whatwas the dream about?
Still vague...
My mind needs refurbishing...

Ignoring the matters at hand...
Looking back...
Ushiro wo miru...

Perhaps another time...if I'm allowed...XD

~Yumei...Verse Ichi~

This should have been talked a long time ago...
Recent?
The third blossom...from the usual four...
It was...strange...
Magic, hotel, spells, summoned beasts...
It ended
Before it resolved...

The previous?
Fist blossom...2 vagues...
Second blossom...once...vague
But the third...clear
Somehow...I dunno why...

And now?
Well my struggle continues...
Guess I should be balanced...
Zahir n batin...
For the better...