Tales of A Lost Soul

~Wandering...Verse Ichi...~

I felt...empty
I didn't care.
Everything didn't mean a thing.
How clueless.
How foolish.

It was a good wind turn.
Just me and the peaceful night.
The breezy wind
Strolling slowly in that moment
Guess this is the 2nd time in memory.

I just went randomly the first time.
Well it turned out good.
Very good.
Ah the second time...was subtly good I guess.
That third...heh it wasn't actually on heart.

Twas...hungry..haha.
No one else...me alone.
And the silent night.
Didn't cared bout the nightly dangers.
Heh, I'm a guy afterall.
So I went blindly, slowly.
Just followed where my heart said.
Randomly picking, enjoying it slowly...
But it was also...
It kinda had a feel of freedom I guess.
Doing whatever I wanted.
Worrying bout nothing.
Just leaving it all to those chains instead.

But I liked that moment.
Anyways, guess I better wake up.
About time I get moving and do what I must.
I've played around more than enough.
Lets give this a slow try.

We'll see where we'll go.
Its the right thing to do anyway.
Sigh...I hope it is.
But now...I'll get some rest.
Then maybe be like what others are doing.
Giving it their all.
Just hope I wont go too far out and kill myself again.

Heh...guess there's no need to fear actually.
I'll rest if I get tired.
I'll take a step back and enjoy the scenery if things get messy.
I kinda know where to go and find healing.
So I won't just go and drop dead this time.
Yeah...this time...I'm not alone.
I've got great friends.

~The Journey Begins...Verse Go~

I feel...lost...
What are my intentions?
What are my goals?
Ore no yaranakyanaranai koto wa nanda?
Nanda?

Twisted...my mind
My heart...yureru
So...what now?

Saa ne...
Many things that I should do...
But I procrastinate...

Ah...this song came so many times from the shuffled deck of songs...
Maybe there's a devil
Something like it
Inside of me
Deep inside of me

Jealous angel deep inside me
Ur missing all the action underneath my table...
Im waiting for my turn...
Akuma...mazoku...youkai...
Deep within the depths of my heart...

A jealous angel? Heck are there any angels in me by any chance?
Devil...heh
Guess thats my main aim now...
The devil within...but not jealousy...
Or is it atually is jealousy all this while?

Guess I shouldn't care bout anything else...
And focus on this...demon
The next utter randomness... An easy kaze
Just being easy breezy...relaxing...
Ignoring other things...focusing only on one goal?

~The Journey Begins...Verse Shi~

We are lost...
Searching for something not many actually know
What do we live for?
Even that...
Not many answered right...

What lies ahead?
We are lost...
We change...
Searching for the light
Sadness
Tears...
Someday...will turn to light

Cuz Im neva gonna stop streak my dream

I believe...everything and eachthing
Has a meaning
Goodbyes, sayonaras...

We keep on changing...
Dreams and hearts...
Just with these...its not enough...
We need guides on this journey
So we wont get lost

Saa...run!

We are lost...searching for something uncertain...
Saddness and sorrow...will
Someday turn to light...
If...only if...
You choose the right path.

~The Journey Begins...Verse San~

I know not what lies at my journey's end
I can only hope
As time goes by
Only few know what I desire now
To hold a hand...
In my journey
The heart's journey that not many walk

~The Journey Begins...Verse Nii~

These memories...
These feelings...
Within me...

Will they be forgotten?
The journey
A long road still lies

Maybe some inspiration
Shall enlighten me
And my dark soul

Things said
Intentionally or not
I believe in no coincidence

The journey
The sign of calmness
First: Stray from the realm of lies
Second: Approach the realm of eternity
Third: Ready before it arrives...death

Those who are chosen
Shall always remember it
That which ends comfort

~The Beginning...Verse Shi~

I think...
I might have found a reason
To do what I must do

Since others struggle...
What makes them so?
I, might found my reason...
To be the same

What has been done cannot be undone
The only thing I can do
Is atone and repent
Fight it
Sore dakeda

I guess...I must go aswell
Saa...
Bokuwa...Ikuyo.

~The Beginning...Verse San~

Its been 6 days...
I may not remember much
But I will try...

<Kioku no Kakera...Ichi>
(Memory Shard One)
Yappari...
The outside is only the outside...
I was thunderstrucked
What was shown was true i guess...
Things are not what they seem...
Its my weakness I guess...
Those who unveil
Only once in a while
Even indirectly...
I cannot control my shadow if that happens

Ni,
Let the past go
Ill take whats important
Though I may overlook certain things...
I am just a normal human

San,
Today...
Was it fated?
I missed something, a lot even...
And something else came stumbling
The unexpected encounter
On the less traveled road
That should be traveled
By those who follow it

I found something...
That had been under my eyes...
I may understand a bit...
Of what was foretold not long ago...

The connector had problems
So it was hard for me to chronicle myself
But now its ok
So I can continue

While I daze...
Time goes on
Guess I have to make my move...
What was left...
I may recollect one day...
If I am allowed to do so...

~The Beginning...Verse Ni~

Ah, such a strong wind
Wild but gentle
My shadow....it has begun
I must prevail.

This morning...
The dead man's visions
They were strange
I somehow knew why
Watch those things again
I must not

As easily and breezy as the wind...
I entered

For the first time...
It was white
Was it a premonition for what I had prayed for?
No....the reality clouds judgement
Another white was floating...
All the time, almost always....no?

So I cannot trust the real visions...
For they can happen coincidentally...
But coincidence...is it not fate
Destiny?
My knowledge is so little....
What more my wisdom?

But that one....the one that was almost always black
Turned white...almost pure white...
I was....stunned
Then shards of shadows took over...
I must control myself
I cannot hurt those innocent souls...
At least they are...
Purer than this lost soul
That is for sure

Now my sword is fixed...
I can go to the battlefield again,
What's left now is to face my enemy
Nigeruna....Tatakae!
For I am her knight

I shall not let her down.

~The Journey Begins...Verse Ichi~

Me wo samasu...
Mou...owatta...jikan ga...
And so in haste
We went

Though with holy presence
I was hopeless
Kokoro...tarinai
It ended...with many disputes

Yet tomorrow still lies
Another one like today
Will they strike again?
Those imbeciles
They know not what lies before them
Yet they still
Obliged no respect

And now I must go..
But my heart wavers...
Will I survive tonight?
Shall my shadow take my soul?
Or shall it dissappear?

Saa....wakaranai...

~The Beginning...Verse Ichi~

A late riser I am...
Duty calls...
Off I went

There
I was blessed by the descendant
Tis a happy day
The day felt worthwhile
Though it just began

I survived last night
Yet it will come again
I must stay alert
My life depends on it

Those who look to their sides
And those below them
Might turn corrupted

Sa, ue wo mirou
To stay pure
Ue no hoshi wo mirou...STARGAZER