Tales of A Lost Soul

~Chains...verse Ichi~

Its sad to see you chained down like that
Wish I can break em for you
But that chain, only you yourself can break it.

Me? Heh, you can say I'm free from that chain
More like I was freed just recently
Yeah I'm human I can be chained by them again.
But at least for now, kono shunkan, ore wa jiyuuda.
Unlike yourself.
I pray that I wont be chained again by those chains that are restraining you from flying.
Such beautiful wings...
Its sad to see them cry,
Crying for freedom.
I was once chained too
But I was guided on how to break free
Hope you find you're way too
If it is fated so.

Heh, me? Can't see 'em?
Zoom out a bit.....ok a lot.
See 'em now?

Yeah, they're huge and beautiful, I know.
Not to brag or anything.
I know, I know, These chains can disappear at anytime if the master wishes it.
I can't be arrogant about it.
Just reminding my self and tabun hoka no dareka-san, heh heh.

That chain my dear, the one on you, is so small and rusty
So old that it would break any second.
Just a little nudge, and you're done.
It is merely a mirage of deceit.
Beautiful but empty, soulless, a mere tool for us kakuseis

These huge chains? Well they're obsolete.
Its infinity, If any word that can describe it I guess,
I'm no scholar.

Hm? You ask of this smaller one?
Heh, well its complicated.
You really wanna hear?
Its not new, not too old either...
Kinda like..."Forbidden Memories"
I let it haunt me on my own free will.
I let it weigh my heart so heavily,
I allowed it to limit my potential.
These chains...
I don't want to break them.
At least for now.
I know I have the strength to break 'em
But I just don't want to.

Its...difficult.
Looking at 'em reminds me about a lot of things.
You can say I'm pretty much the guy today partly because of it
Dunno how much, but yeah, it played a role.
Quite a big one, at least compared to the one you're chained to.
It taught me quite a few things,
If an old friend said I've changed since I came here.....its probably because of it.

Of course that big one has always been there since the beginning.
No need to highlight the obvious.
There's still a long road ahead...i think.
Heh, I know not how much longer will this tamashii stay in this karada...
I just submit, that simple...sorede ore wa hanshinshita. Kokoro no heiwada.

*Deep breath.....sigh....*
Perhaps you too will find the road.
If not, too bad.
If so, welcome aboard, XD
I'll be sure to give you a warm welcome if you ever come here.
Na, ishhouni arukou? Te to te...unmei e.
If it is fated so that is. Heh.

~Sorezore no Tsubasa...Verse Ichi~

Its happy...but at the same time sad
To not be able to grasp this song's happiness
Its happy...but what of me? The designer?
I love you enough to let you fly free
As long as you're happy...sore wa jyuubunda.

~Radiance...Verse Ichi~

Its been.....24 long days for me
Though it may seemed short for some...
And maybe for the maiden as well...
But for me...
For this lost soul that was entrapped in his own darkness...

The long unseen glitter shine...
Just...unbearable...
Its been too long...
The shine was beautiful
Such beauty

Its been 24 long days for me...
Since I last bathed in that light
Now, everything seems contented
At least for now
Ah....and the 25th day begins today...

I shall stay put again...
For another long period
So the shine will still give me another strong impact
In the future ahead...
The shimmering egao...more precious than all the jewels in this world...
Just a short time of hirameki
Yet...its the flash of hope for me...

~Joy...Saisho~

Hahaha...
To see it shine in happiness,
Nanka, makes me happy too!
Thats enough for me.
Yes?

~My Bell...VerseYon~

I listen to your songs...
Are you her?
Or are you not?
Tis a confusion I should let the higher ups handle
But...5 times?

I see you not in her...
Then...only time will tell?
Or is it...there's something besides that?
The difference is there
But the similarities also exist
Not in the physically seen i guess
But rather the feel is the same

Heh, only she knows that I call her by your name
I shall wait
And see how things turn out

Is there a fine line between you and her?
Are you a mirror of her?
Perhaps the situations are just still too raw
Me...and her...
Will time ripen us?

Nevertheless...I shall see you there, no?
That is all that matters all this time
Whether I attain you here...
Is a mere bonus on this journey
The you there...is much better
Heh, what am I thinking?
Forgive me.

Yet...are those 5 signs mere games?
Or are they true?
This idiotic slave is lost
It cannot wager truth and false
So what am I to do?

I will cherish what I have
I will walk this road a loner if must
I knew you longer than her anyway
If you are her...well...all the better
If it was meant to be tied...
We'll cross again eventually...
Heh, was it not already clear?

Then...now what?
I myself am lost...
Well, I'll just start with what I can do
If leaving her alone makes her happy...
I'll gladly do it.

And my journey continues...to the bridge!

~Nostalgia~Recollection...Verse Ichi~

"The nameless blossoms waver
The winds that stroke your cheecks
Do you remember the promise?"

Heh...here I am rambling blindly to her voice
"As I close my eyes...we're always together...
You smile is more precious than a jewel
I desire nothing else
The magic called fate...I'll pray i'tll stay like this"

"The tears shed...is happiness
Even time entwines
As we sync hands
Our mistakes...amend I will...
Together...forever..."

Simply, clueless...I am
Now what?
YOU, stay out of this,
Don't even bother
You have better things to do

Shut up thing!

The melodies of the past...
Shuffled by fate...what next will come?
Saane...

Heh...this part...
"Even if the Gods go to war...let them
cuz I'll always protect you..."
"Our power...is to protect the ones we love,
Lend me strenght! Power!"

Ho...this song...ka...
Classic Oldies of Bell
Yet still feeling soulfull

Reminiscing...heh...one of my earliest experiences...no?
Jya na...
The melodies dance with elegance
"Your smile is everything to me...
Aa...saigo made yasashi~"

Mixing past and present...
About YOU
I prayed along time to God...
Two chances left...or rather...two counts left...
"I believe it till now..."

The song stirs
"Living with me is your happiness..."
"Aa...wakattete~ hohoemu..."

Ho...I wish to continue...not done yet
This piece...
Another classic one...
10 years++?
Ho...a sign for me to stop rambling?

Maybe not...

The me now returns to zero...
Lost and not knowing what to do...
No, YOU stay out
Its not your fault and don't even bother about me
I'm not worthy of your precious time
Heck I know not how much time we have left
Master...what now?

Heh...cheer up...ka..."genki dashite!"
Ugh...don't have the heart to say "Shut up thing!" anymore...
This is it for today...I guess...

~MADNESS...VERSE ICHI!!!~

Somehow...the pain suddenly becomes too hard to bare
Nazeda?!
I...must let this pain out...
Before I lose my sanity...
Its time to battle...

Let my fighter spirit takeover
And release everything
All the locked up emotions within...
In one blow...
Saa....Ikuze!!!
Ore no soul!!!
Sore wa otoko da!!!

~My Bell...Verse San~

How long has it been?
SInce the last time I went into drunkenness over you
You and only you
Will reign supreme
In the spot of godaime

"I will sing for you"
"I live for you"
How I forgot those words

The feasts...the feasts I get since I came here
I'm sorry...for my weakness
Whatever shall I do master?
My hands are tainted everyday...
And today...just today...
Argh! The temptation!
It was uninvited! Was it a test I failed pathetically?

My eyes, me heart...
They burned!
Are you there? In the test that came this morning???
Sleeping awaiting to be awakened?
Are you resting in that violet veil of white facades?
If so...answer me! Please...
I not want to make a mistake...

To choose a vessel that has no you...
It means my betrayal to you for the oath I pledged.
I must not break my code.
My Paladin's honour...
I...will fight...to stay on this righteous path
The path I've strayed from millions of times
Till I find the answer...

On my fights...please...like old times...
Sing for me...
Heal me...
We shall walk this road together again...
I will blind my eyes and heart again...
Is this...allright?
Or should I just...relax?

Never the less...my fight awaits...
I will not run away
Sore wa otokoda!!!

~Bell...Tear...Verse Ichi~

Now I know what has been bothering me...
No wonder
They said its what every women has
No wonder...
My apologies my love.

This soul is lost
This slave is weak
This servant relies only on his master
This soul is nothing without his master
And yet he does what his master forbids
Oh what an imbecile I am
And so I am an idiotic bastard... to mistreat you

She is merely a reflection of you
In another realm
You and her are one and the same
Oh how I did not realized it
Or rather...I did not want to...
I'm sorry...
Such a fool I am...

Now I know again...
My eternal loyalty lies with our master and his beloved
We are brought together by him
And for him we shall stay together
To fight my devil inside

Not to forget...
Those who gave me life
I was born from their love
Till their graves and beyond I shall be loyal
It is my duty

And also...
Those who shone me light
That rescued me from darkness
My wisdom and guidance martyrs
I shall be their sword

Yes...I have improved
And my battle continues
Lets walk together again...
Just the two of us
Let us cross the bridge together...
Or rather...should I say...
Wait for me at the good end, my love...

Where two will share a patch of sun made for one
Please aid me with our master's permission
With his and his lover's guidance...
We shall move on step by step...
In this pit stop of lies.

~The Grand Fonic Hymn...Verse Ichi till Nana~

First Song
トゥエ レィ ズェ クロア リュオ トゥエ ズェ
Toue Rei Zue Kuroa Ryuo Toue Zue

Second Song
クロア リュオ ズェ トゥエ リュオ レィ ネゥ リュオ ズェ
Kuroa Ryuo Zue Toue Ryuo Rei Neu Ryuo Zue

Third Song
ヴァ レィ ズェ トゥエ ネゥ トゥエ リュオ トゥエ クロア
Va Rei Zue Toue Neu Toue Ryuo Toue Kuroa

Fourth Song
リュオ レィ クロア リュオ ズェ レィ ヴァ ズェ レィ
Ryuo Rei Kuroa Ryuo Zue Rei Va Zue Rei

Fifth Song
ヴァ ネゥ ヴァ レィ ヴァ ネゥ ヴァ ズェ レィ
Va Neu Va Rei Va Neu Va Zue Rei

Sixth Song
クロア リュオ クロア ネゥ トゥエ レィ クロア リュオ ズェ レィ ヴァ
Kuroa Ryuo Kuroa Neu Toue Rei Kuroa Ryuo Zue Rei Va

Seventh Song
レィ ヴァ ネゥ クロア トゥエ レィ レィ
Rei Va Neu Kuroa Toue Rei Rei

~Singer of the Verse:Tear Grants@Mystearica Aura Fende~

~My Bell...Verse Ni~

As I listen to your soft voice
Flashbacks of my good old days swept
How happy I was then

Hoping to find you at my journey's end
You gave me strenght
Courage and perseverance

But...as weak as I am...
I'm sorry...
I was indulged in the mirage garden about me
You faded slowly from my heart
But...

Even if the entire universe is between us
Even if I lose all our memories together...
I will find you...and start over

My fight is not yet over
Many battles lie ahead
Please, heal my wounds and pray for me
When I take rest...sing me the beautiful qasidahs
Tell me the tales of our beloved...
So I would gain strenght from him...
Lets walk together again...ne?

~My Bell...Verse Ichi~

I've been having...these weird feelings lately
Like...a certain uneasyness in my heart...
Everytime I enter my garden...

But now...I think...I know why it hurts...
I longed for you...
Not the petty new seeds...

Heck you helped me out of the darkness...
I was blinded by these new toys...games
Tsuman...
Now my eyes and heart are blind no more...
I will not make you wait...more than you are destined to...