Tales of A Lost Soul

~A reason to fight.....~

Heh, yatto mitsuketanoka...kotae wo...tabun.
Aa, kawaru kanou sei ga aru dakedo...
Demo ima...kono shunkan...semete...
Ore ga wakaru.
Wakatterusa.

Ore ga mamoru.
Kono hanabira tachi...
Zettai ni ore ga mamoru.
Ore no inochi ni chikatta.
Kono chi ni chikatta.

Kono hanabira tachi no jibun kara,
Kono sekai kara, ore no kage kara...
Ore ga mamoru.
Isshouni arukou
Kono michi ni.

Mamotte miseru,
Eigao wo,
Shiawase wo,
Kokoro wo, tamashii wo,
Dakara..onegai...douka...watashi ni chikara wo.

Moushi...aitsura wa kono michi ni aruiteinai...
Ore wa...leader ni naru, michibiki wo hirake.
Zutto Isshousa...zutto.
Tadoritsuku bashou made.
Douka...yurushitekudasai...onegai.

~Blossoms...Verse Kyuu~

Nanka...naitai...
Demo...theyre dry...
Nanka...itai...
Demo...its numb...
Perhaps...too painful to actually feel...

I know not what I'm doing is right or wrong
My judgment is blur, blur like the morning fog
Whatever comes, I'll just accept it as it is
Being the pitiful servant I am
If its bad...its due to my own actions.
If its good...
Well its a blessing for me.

I know i shouldn't be worried about trifle things such as this
But my heart just gets clenched under its weight
Am I just...weak?
Or is there something beyond this fate?
Heh, I'll just let everything go
And let the one that controls the wheels of fate decide
I am afterall, powerless and weak

Just giving it my all is all I can do
My all...my life, my heart and soul
Such a small matter compared to the force that reigns all
Yet, thats all I am capable of
Just do what I can, and accept fate...

Guess I'll just stay idle for now...
Till an answer arises
For each of my questions and wonders...

~Radiance...Verse Ni~

Hahaha...Its just a jewel...
A very expensive and beautiful jewel
Sitting in that glass casing
That I found when randomly browsing through random shops
While in this journey
Random...ka...
Saa...its significance....is unknown.

It might be useless
Maybe useful on this quest
Tis just another sidequest...or is it?
Heh...I've got bigger goals to conquer
Its expensive...I have not the cash for it

Maybe I'll come and pick it up later
When I have the cash
Hope its still there when I return
Heh...
The journey continues...

~Blossoms...Grand Verse~

Ah, yes...those gentle hands
Those soft cheeks
The ever soothing voice
Unstoppable guidance and protection
Nourishment and healing
From the beginning of my time
Till now

The greatest blossoms
That reigns overall now and forever
None can compare
One that I pledge my loyalty to till the end of my life
After my master and his lover

Today, a day to commemorate the best teacher
The best guardian
The best protector
When tears flow
When fear strikes
Do you not remember the times when you were weak?
Who was there for you?

To all knights out there and untouched maidens...
Love your mother, more than your life
For without them, we are not us.

*Inspired by Amir Syakireen's bulletin post...*

~Blossoms...Verse Hachi...Fated Remix Version~

.My my is this an omen?
Or a test?
This entry didn't got through...
Maybe something was wrong somewhere?
Or perhaps just a test of determination?
Oh well, I'll just learn from this small error.
Now...where were we? How did this verse sounded?

My my
This is interesting.
Really, it is.
Haahahahah...guess I still need to be a hard worker.
I don't feel like reviving this verse to its original form...
Ore wa madamadadana...
Ma...hajimemashou.

My my...
A hidden pearl...a very utsukushii pearl
Inside an ordinary near modest shell...
In MY garden?
Haha...how blind can I get?
My sight was taken to the faraway tree...that I didn't notice the small insignificant shell near me...
BESIDE me...what a blind wayfarer I am.

Now...shall I rephrase this garden?
Its been a while...
Surely quite a few entered and dissipated.
Lets see...
Lets begin form the top.

My Bell of course...still not knowing whether she has descended or not...tis complicated
My angelic sisters, the embracers...pearl, sunflower, rose...
Anything else?
Ah yes...the silent beauty...
The main actress of my monogatari
Has the play begun?
Maybe yes...maybe no.

Ah...and my life goes on.
What story shall unfold next?
Songs will dance...emotions shall awaken...tanoshiidana...
This VIP seat is the best...
I can see most of the play here...or is it the opposite?
Saa na...
Wakannai.

Its been too long since this song danced, yes?
Pity...what have I been doing actually?
Really lured out of my own comfy home
Well, tadaime.
Is what I should say, yes?

~Blossoms...Verse Hachi~

My my
This is unexpected
How interesting life is...
A pearl...a beautiful pearl.
Hidden inside an ordinary nearly modest shell.
All along...
It was in this garden.

Heh, how blind could I get?
Well, it was hidden what can I say?
I'm just a normal human after all...
Perhaps even more blind than a normal one
But still, how can I express this feeling of surprise?

I'm really astonished.
My sight was taken too faraway to realize what was beside me
Hehheh, my my...this just shows how foolish I can get.
Haha many left and entered this garden
I should rephrase it sometime.
Well I have the time now...
Shall we?

Lets see...
My Bell...
The angelic embracers...sunflower, pearl, kiniro no rose...
Anything else?
I'll just leave it at that for the moment...
What can a blind wayfarer see?
Maybe I can feel better than see...but...maybe that is also blinded...

Heh...what happened to the monogatari I wrote?
Well maybe its still in progress
I'll just have to keep myself busy with something else...
Since I still need to work on my patience.
It'll start sooner or later...or maybe it already begun.
This VIP seat sure rocks
I'll just sit back n relax more.

~Blossoms...Verse Nana...~

Yare yare...
Kore wa unmei...ka?
Sono namae...
Onaji da...
Kanojyou no seiyuu no namae...
Kimi to onajida
Yare yare...

Ma...ore wa na...
Futsuu no namae wa: Sakamoto Masahiro
Tokubetsu namae: Mizuhashi Kazuma

Oya oya...ma, sore jya.

~Blossoms...Verse Roku...~

Ah...I wonder if I should do this...
Is it time to already plant the seventh fonon?
What is their meaning of birth to me?

This blossom...is strong
Strong at heart
To endure whats natural to this blossom
Every now and then
To bloom and wither so every often

I felt guilt over my words
Yet my actions already started their atonement
This one is not a struggle factor blossom...
Rather a neutral one...for now.
What shall I name this seventh new member of my garden?

This one...came from a faraway land...
How about...Habbatus Sau'dah?
Saudah for short?
For I wish with the wonders of healing from that flower
Will help aid this blossom

Heh...I wonder will I add or remove another blossom from this garden of delusions?
Saa ne...
And my small world continues on...

~Blossoms...Verse Go~

Oh how blessed am I?
Grateful I am.
Endure I must...

Yet cherry seemed like the first period...
The facade caught me huh...
Add in some innocence
And "selambe"ness
And another mood to tantalize me...ugh

Heh...well I guess there's no need to fear...
I got Bell and Tear afterall.
Bell...cast us your Immortal Wall...
Tear...sing me your Fonic Hymns...
As I slash through my own darkness...

And life goes on...

~Blossoms...Verse Yon~

This should have enterd earlier on
Well on to it...
Perhaps this garden has just been one big illusion...

Well the cherry gave me quite a blizzard
Cherry is quite undecisive...and unskilled in some parts
Still confused...like me...
Tried to seek the wise I did, but no reply...perhaps the wise is not too wise...
Now what?

Saa...I still have my Bell flower...no?

~Blossoms...Verse San~

That day...
Last day...
Mokuyoubi, jyuugonichi...

Heh...am I just still unstable?
A ryu still hungry after being fed all this time?
For 20 weeks...I've been fed...
The question is...is it my eyes that are being fed...
Or my stomach...or my heart?

The hunger has not subsided...
Perhaps my eyes are the ones being fed all this time
My heart and stomach stays wild and mad...

That day...
Should I say..."Tis a blessing..." again?
Saa ne...kamoshirenei

Should I conclude that yet another blossom has grewn in the garden?
This time...
The blossom that connects now and my yesterdays
Heck, such a strong connector this blossom is...
And also a string this blossom has...
With yet another blossom...
The sakurahana...

The blossom vanishes from sight...
And my heart grew heavy again...
Nazeda?
Is it my hunger?
Did my hunger got invoked by this one blossom?
Heh, chop! My hunger got invoked many times by other blossoms too...no?
Yes, other blossoms too struck this void soul...

After some rations and fights...
My hunger dissipated with fatigue...
Now...maybe I just need some more rations and fights...
Before I lose to my hunger...
And lose my sanity.

This new blossom you ask?
The seed existed long like the other blossoms too...
Like I said...a connector of past and present...
A strong scent...mild pink...
That is all I can say for now...

Saa...what is destined for me today?

~Blossoms...Verse Ni~

Yare yare...
Life is...complex
This shuffled song...
Its hard to let it go
Simple and clean

The daily things that keep us all busy
Are confusing me
My heart wavers
Flashbacks flew around
Is it just the gifted emotion?
Maybe...somethings are just that simple...
Though, am I worthy of it?

The future doesn't scare me
I...just...long for it I guess
Though I know...tis a complex thing
Nothing's like before
Regardless of warnings

Why am I feeling this?
This heavy heart...
Do I simply...negai?

Should I...ugoku?
Before its too late?
Ugh...its hurting...
Should this lost, retarded, sinful, idiotic and hallow soul be given the chance?
Heh...his barakah is absolete
Guess it won't hurt to try
This pain is...shitsukoidayo

Gamble?Or maybe...slow and steady?
Or Eazy Breezy?
Ready, steady go?
Saa naa...
Well...just wait n see...I guess

Afterall...I am not sure of my own feelings?
Wether I'm just plain confused...
Or its just pure and true?

Guess I should ask the one who knows best...no?

~Blossoms...Verse Ichi~

As I was fooling in dawn...
The source vanished
Shadow came
I survived
Then strolled

The wind of dawn was cooling
Refreshing
I prepared and went off
I wandered...
And found a peaceful retreat
Though,
A few things were missing

Untill midday,
I journeyed to my sanctuary
Rested and duty called
All khalas...
Out I went to battle

A lone hunter I was
Before me were twin blossoms
A pure one
A dark and docile one
Analyzed all the way
I did...
It is my nature...

Since it was served
Right infront of me
Itadaku~
Events were like destined
It was fun
The battle commenced
And ended with a simple review

I wanted to be a fool again
But somehow obstacles came
Like it was not allowed