Tales of A Lost Soul

~Tamashii no Hahaue...Verse Ichi~

The eleventh of this holy period.
Let us remember for those who know
And realize for those who don't.
The sacrifice.
The suffering.
We wouldn't be here if not for her.
The first to say he was true,
When others say he was wrong.
A woman whose emotions did not clouded her judgment
A pure beauty, loving mother who raised heroic senshis.
Let us remember...for without her, we are nothing.

A supporter for the cause.
Mere taunts of imbeciles are useless to belittle her.
Like insects trying to crush mountains with their puny breath.

One who is already there.
While we stay here swayed with useless toys.
Remember...for she does not desire our omois.
Nor our deeds.
In fact, it is us who desire for her light.
Remember...
Remember...

Even if our deeds are a mere speck compared to hers
Even if we cant compare to him.
Remember, we are together with those who we love.

~Utter Defeat...Verse Ichi...~

Heh, even under this holy moon shine...
When demons and beasts are chained and caged
Even under these conditions
Still I waver
Still I gave in
Still I lost my mind
Nasakenai...orette...yoweina...

Tsuyoku nare.
Its been countless losses already
The cycle continues...
Heh, I'm just a pitiful soul
Powerless to begin with.

Well, I'll give it my best shot.
Thats about the only thing I can do.
I'll limit myself.
So that I'll stay in control.
Guess I'll just keep on fighting...
With this fatigued mind, body, heart and soul...
Till I fall.

~Daily Brew...Verse San~

Kita.
The moment that I didn't realize.
Its time.
Time to return back
Return to my origin.

Yet...I'm swayed.
How weak can I get?
Douka...wo chikara wo...

I've been in low spirits lately
Wondering from time to time.
The road is wide open in front of me.
Yet I still waver.
Is it that...I long for support?
Is the support now not enough?
Or am I just playing around?

Heh, these daily things make me laugh.
Some go weary over these
They worry so much, it shackles them down
Like heavy weights...
They walk as though they are underwater
Even though they are on ground
Yes, everyone has worries, its no doubt.

Being afraid is not totally wrong.
Oretachi wa ningen da...atarimaedarou?
Wish I could break those shackles...
How I strongly, strongly wish to shatter that fear
To let those doves fly high as much as they want.
But...I myself am shackled to my own past.
My own fears...my own regrets.

When I'm lost...I ask for guidance.
When I'm weak, I ask for strength.
Then I surrender...soredake.

Ah...the shackles are gripping tighter...
Its painful...and sad.
They limit my movements, my potential.
Yet I feel as though I don't want to let go of them.
Yes, I fear to break out of this zone.
Fear of repeating it again.
Heh, why am I here stuck on Number 5?

Worrying over this inferior light...
While I can go and weep over that superior one?
Yare yare...I get crazy over something so much,
I lose grasp of my priorities.
Sigh.................
Douka...is there a way to amend this?
I...missed...I regret...

If I didn't messed up...
I might be laughing now.
Happily settling the daily things that needs to be done
Together...
But I messed up...
Now I'm afraid...fear to amend...
The feel is even different now.

Heh, One bloody mess in one section...
And there goes the other three
Messed up as well.
How sensitive can I get...
Ah...how sad...

If I were a bit more patient and mature...
I might be enjoying my life...
Just like it was in the very beginning...
Heck I am an emotional one...
That I cannot hide.
Control over my emotions is one thing I lack.
Without emotions, I might better off be dead.

Heh, then again...the me now...
Doesn't give a damn if this world is destroyed.
Is not impressed with what others were blown away by.
I find it hard to get impressed.
What others say "wow"...I go "..."
Its somehow...numb...
I don't care anymore...

That one precious moment is gone.
There's nothing else that can give me emotions.
I'm now nothing more than a living moving soulless scabbard.
Heh, here I am...weeping over the inferior.
Nasakenai...

Well, the time has come.
A golden time.
I better use it to my advantage.
Before it ends...
A time of peace...
A time where light amplified...
And darkness reduced.

~Everlasting Fight...First Strike~

This enemy is overwhelming
Its heavy,
Strong...
No, not again!
No!

I won't lose dammit!
Not one more!
Not even one more!
Never!
I won't betray the oath no more!
You won't get me this time!

Please let there be strength
Let there be spirit in this weak soul
To overcome the shadow running about
Heh, hehehe hahaha I've lost so many times its pathetic!
And I'm still alive, still here.

Will this ever end?
Argh, its so much to bear...
I'm dissipating, fading...
Will I maintain sanity?
How much longer can I stay sane?

I feel like feasting in the mountain of darkness
To savor the moment of pure darkness
My hands tremble in impatience.
Yet I know I must not...
"HOSHI!!!!!HOSHI!!!!!GAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH"
"HOLD OUT WHILE YOU CAN, I KNOW YOU'LL WAVER SOONER OR LATER"
"AND THEN I'LL DIVE IN WAHAGA!!!"

Ah, this does not look good.
What ever alternatives do I have?
Heh, thats suicide.
Maybe I should just drunk my self with that drug I usually take?
That'd probably do it...
And I lose my work...>_>
Ugh...hokano houhou wa nai no ka?

Must it be that?
Sigh...better than this...
Its not fool proof, but at least its something...
Rather than the vulnerable me now...
I'm shaking with fear...I can't keep it docile any longer than I have...

Heh, releasing it last night was a bad idea
Sending it back to its cage is a pain.
Look, its running rampant again.
I'm shouting like hell
I'm outta ideas already.

Argh I can't focus on work!
Cis, get outta here already dammit!
Go and disturb someone else for once.
Like thats possible...<_<
Mendokusei...

Argh, its time to fight again...
Might as well do it...
Or die...