Tales of A Lost Soul

~A reason to fight.....~

Heh, yatto mitsuketanoka...kotae wo...tabun.
Aa, kawaru kanou sei ga aru dakedo...
Demo ima...kono shunkan...semete...
Ore ga wakaru.
Wakatterusa.

Ore ga mamoru.
Kono hanabira tachi...
Zettai ni ore ga mamoru.
Ore no inochi ni chikatta.
Kono chi ni chikatta.

Kono hanabira tachi no jibun kara,
Kono sekai kara, ore no kage kara...
Ore ga mamoru.
Isshouni arukou
Kono michi ni.

Mamotte miseru,
Eigao wo,
Shiawase wo,
Kokoro wo, tamashii wo,
Dakara..onegai...douka...watashi ni chikara wo.

Moushi...aitsura wa kono michi ni aruiteinai...
Ore wa...leader ni naru, michibiki wo hirake.
Zutto Isshousa...zutto.
Tadoritsuku bashou made.
Douka...yurushitekudasai...onegai.

~Wandering...Verse Ichi...~

I felt...empty
I didn't care.
Everything didn't mean a thing.
How clueless.
How foolish.

It was a good wind turn.
Just me and the peaceful night.
The breezy wind
Strolling slowly in that moment
Guess this is the 2nd time in memory.

I just went randomly the first time.
Well it turned out good.
Very good.
Ah the second time...was subtly good I guess.
That third...heh it wasn't actually on heart.

Twas...hungry..haha.
No one else...me alone.
And the silent night.
Didn't cared bout the nightly dangers.
Heh, I'm a guy afterall.
So I went blindly, slowly.
Just followed where my heart said.
Randomly picking, enjoying it slowly...
But it was also...
It kinda had a feel of freedom I guess.
Doing whatever I wanted.
Worrying bout nothing.
Just leaving it all to those chains instead.

But I liked that moment.
Anyways, guess I better wake up.
About time I get moving and do what I must.
I've played around more than enough.
Lets give this a slow try.

We'll see where we'll go.
Its the right thing to do anyway.
Sigh...I hope it is.
But now...I'll get some rest.
Then maybe be like what others are doing.
Giving it their all.
Just hope I wont go too far out and kill myself again.

Heh...guess there's no need to fear actually.
I'll rest if I get tired.
I'll take a step back and enjoy the scenery if things get messy.
I kinda know where to go and find healing.
So I won't just go and drop dead this time.
Yeah...this time...I'm not alone.
I've got great friends.

~Looking back...verse Ichi~

Heh, that event was a blast!
Many like me,
Many greater than me,
Many crazier than me.
Many individuals gathered.

Sure twas fun, all the crazyness
All the insanity.
The cheap and good food.
All the beautiful art displays.
Enjoyed the wii too.

Heh, yet...you know what?
Somewhere deep within...
It felt...empty.
I should know best the reason.
Four petals were missing, weren't they?

Perhaps that was the answer.
But then again, maybe not.
Maybe its something else.
How could I know?
Heh...how could I know...

~Yumei...Verse Jyuusan~

Heh...
Let this small carving...
Remind me of this small event
A carving only I could unlock
Only I could disenchant.

Yes...twas bizarre
Obviously for because of the time and deed.
Well, whatever the reason
This could well enough...
More than enough actually.

If a man wanted to kill himself
But he wanted to have his last nap first
This ray of light would change his mind
He would not end his life
It would be enough to make him smile,
A warmth enough to last a few years
At least thats what I think.

A gentleness that transcends time and space.
I can still feel it.
I can still remember it.

Whether this is a mere game or not
Its not for me to decide is it?
I'll just accept it as it is.
For this has returned a few years of my life that I had thrown.
Nanka...ureshii.

~Everlasting Fight...Third Strike~

Ah...I'm losing my grasp of reason.
Madness ga...kuru.
Ugh...mou genkaika.
Iya, I must be strong.
Though this crazy cycle continues
I must fight on.
Sore shika...nai.

Ah, my rational mind wavers
My hands...heh tainted as always.
Yet I can still smile like this.
Heh... I wonder if I am still sane?
Perhaps its time to take a step back and enjoy the scenery.

Yeah, need a break.
Some rest.
A place for my wounds to heal.
For my mind to gaze into the wind.
For my heart to lie down peacefully.

Peace...perhaps a song of peace would do.
A song for comforting sorrow
To heal the pain of losing
To caress those streaming tears
To calm vengeance within.
To the place where stars fall...
We'll see each other again.

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I love you enough to let you go free
Motto...motto tsuyokunaru kara
Mamoritai...sono egao,
Tsuyoku
Tsuyoku.

~Chains...verse Ichi~

Its sad to see you chained down like that
Wish I can break em for you
But that chain, only you yourself can break it.

Me? Heh, you can say I'm free from that chain
More like I was freed just recently
Yeah I'm human I can be chained by them again.
But at least for now, kono shunkan, ore wa jiyuuda.
Unlike yourself.
I pray that I wont be chained again by those chains that are restraining you from flying.
Such beautiful wings...
Its sad to see them cry,
Crying for freedom.
I was once chained too
But I was guided on how to break free
Hope you find you're way too
If it is fated so.

Heh, me? Can't see 'em?
Zoom out a bit.....ok a lot.
See 'em now?

Yeah, they're huge and beautiful, I know.
Not to brag or anything.
I know, I know, These chains can disappear at anytime if the master wishes it.
I can't be arrogant about it.
Just reminding my self and tabun hoka no dareka-san, heh heh.

That chain my dear, the one on you, is so small and rusty
So old that it would break any second.
Just a little nudge, and you're done.
It is merely a mirage of deceit.
Beautiful but empty, soulless, a mere tool for us kakuseis

These huge chains? Well they're obsolete.
Its infinity, If any word that can describe it I guess,
I'm no scholar.

Hm? You ask of this smaller one?
Heh, well its complicated.
You really wanna hear?
Its not new, not too old either...
Kinda like..."Forbidden Memories"
I let it haunt me on my own free will.
I let it weigh my heart so heavily,
I allowed it to limit my potential.
These chains...
I don't want to break them.
At least for now.
I know I have the strength to break 'em
But I just don't want to.

Its...difficult.
Looking at 'em reminds me about a lot of things.
You can say I'm pretty much the guy today partly because of it
Dunno how much, but yeah, it played a role.
Quite a big one, at least compared to the one you're chained to.
It taught me quite a few things,
If an old friend said I've changed since I came here.....its probably because of it.

Of course that big one has always been there since the beginning.
No need to highlight the obvious.
There's still a long road ahead...i think.
Heh, I know not how much longer will this tamashii stay in this karada...
I just submit, that simple...sorede ore wa hanshinshita. Kokoro no heiwada.

*Deep breath.....sigh....*
Perhaps you too will find the road.
If not, too bad.
If so, welcome aboard, XD
I'll be sure to give you a warm welcome if you ever come here.
Na, ishhouni arukou? Te to te...unmei e.
If it is fated so that is. Heh.

~The 40 Rays of Light...Verse Ichi~

My, my what a blessing.
Let this song mark a glorious holy day for my life!
To receive such blessing!
After 1.5 years, it came.
To us who received it, light!

This soul is unworthy of such honour.
Yet embrace it I will.
And continue this life on.